When I get reminded of you, I sometimes think whether the decision I made was correct.
But yet again, God reminds me that there was a reason why it didn't work out.
I'm glad to have met you still, to have you be part of my life, even if it was just a small tiny part of my life.
I think God has used you to tell me that certain things can't or won't happen for a reason.
That in fact the decision I ultimately made was the right thing to do.
Thinking about the what ifs.
What if, I had given that chance.
What if, it worked out in the end.
Sometimes, I am scared of thinking of these certain "what ifs". Because I already know what the outcome would be like.
My life would have been drastically different. I would have been drawn further and further away from God. I wouldn't be serving in church, that's for sure.
To think of all these possibilities, it scares me.
To be running my life so differently. I just can't go there. With what I have now, to be getting closer and closer to God, I am really quite happy with where I am now. With my eyes opening to the world, to see true friends, even to know new people, to be serving and taking up opportunities, to have met such a good best friend who is also the love of my life, who really, I can't say thank you enough for, God made all these happen.
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