Hello 2013, Goodbye 2012.

The year 2012 wasn't very smooth for me.

Reflecting on the past year, I've matured more ever since I've gone into the working world. I'm not completely matured but yeah.

It has been an unexpected one, with new job, no school, new things, new skills.

1. I graduated from poly. With a diploma of Molecular Biotechnology. CCA, Silver, but who really cares eh. Even though I've graduated, at that time it was still "OMG WE ARE GRADUATING" and was can't wait to graduate, but now, I've been wishing I was still in poly.

2. I finally come clean with my parents, especially my mum, about my relationship with Moses by God's prompting. It turned out better than I expected it to be. Now my mum's all "dont think he is your Mr. Right ah I tell you... blah blah blah". 

3. With God's grace, I have a full time job now! And I have a nice boss, nice colleagues, and nice prof. I was fighting for that spot with 3 other degree holders. I was the only one with only a diploma. Really God's grace. Not only that, I've made new friends and my pay ain't that bad even though CPF takes like 400 away :( but I mean CPF in the end I also can use to buy house hahaa.

4. I got my license in the early 2012 in march! I still remembered that the day after I passed my dad ask me to drive on the highway and back home for a short while. A week later I was driving 3 of my friends to school from their house for FOC, of course with my sister at the side la. I finally got to drive alone without any of my family members in the car on the 7th September which we had LSCT Alumni dinner, unfortunately I had an accident in school, which set me back quite bad because after that I have a phobia of driving (still have ok) but now not so bad at least can park now! So thank God for helping me get through all this, hopefully I will be back on track on driving and eventually drive the car alone ^^

5. I went to USS finally! But twice. With two different groups. Unfortunately the first time I went it was not a very pleasant experience because of the set backs of the staycation I faced, but nonetheless, it was my first time but the guys weren't very into spamming rides. The second time I went to USS was with my 2 lovely friends, Ain and Carissa, which we spammed photos and rides and I actually had the guts to sit first row of all the rides, including the Human and Cylon ride.

6. I have been distancing myself from God, but in the beginning of 2012, I was closer to God, but after Sabby went to UK, and bible study stopped, I started to get lazy and started distancing myself from God which is really quite sad...

7. I am trying to pick up ukulele! But still rusty, I can play songs like Jason Mraz "I'm Yours" and Train "Hey Soul Sister". Got abit lazy after awhile  heh.

8. My boyfriend, Moses, enlisted into the army. It hasn't been easy for the both of us, but we are still growing together and learning :)

9. Christmas wasn't the same as last years, sadly. I didn't actually enjoy myself.

10. SHINE M.A.D. (Make A Difference), I decided to join the caroling to M.A.D. people, good experience haha! But I enjoyed myself despite actually always not wanting to go for practice :/ Cos it felt like choir all over again and I hate it.

My resolutions you may ask?

1. To constantly exercise. Currently I am following this "Insanity Challenge" workout, solves my problem of "if it rains I can't run" nonsense, I am still only doing day 1 and day 2 so far, really very thankful to this lady who uploaded all of it on youtube, so you guys can go check it out too! Why exercise? It helps keep your heart healthy! Like really, keep it pumping harder so it gets "exercised" too. And I really wanna lose my love handles. Trust me, I have them. And it's the only thing keeping me from buying body hugging NICE dresses and clothes, and showing it off. My thinking is this "If you have it, flaunt it. If you don't, please don't act like you have" So yeah! But it's not going to be easy with part time studies coming up, but I'm gonna try my best to exercise regularly and follow the "Insanity Challenge" as much as possible, starting from tomorrow.

2.To really study hard. I am really gonna try. I screwed up my poly GPA, and I can't afford to screw up my degree. I know it is not going to be easy working full-time and studying part-time and having a relationship where my dearest boyfriend is planning to go the air-force. It really isn't going to be easy but I'm trusting God with it.

3. To bless more people! And M.A.D. with SHINE! I've started to get Christmas presents for my family this year, since I am already working. Blessed to be a Blessing!

4. To be able to grow more mature, less temperamental! and CHANGE to be someone God wants me to be.

5. To continue to grow together with Moses as a couple, to continually support and encourage him, to be there for him always.

6. To grow closer to God.

7. Read finish the bible! and the book that Michell bought for me.

8. Save more $$! This is going to be hard because I am paying for my own school fees, no more allowance and I am paying for my own transport and meals.

9. Serve more in church! I am starting already, my youth pastor has asked me to serve in Zimrah ministry, which is the praise and worship team. parents aren't too happy, but it's only like once a month = = and annabel has asked me to help with Kids Ministry! Moses has been also called to serve and be a youth leader!

10. To do well in my workplace, and also help spread God's word.

11. To do less gossiping. (HAHA this one is really hard but I'll do my best)

But anyways, I really wanna thank God for bringing me through another year. He has been merciful and graceful to me. Hope that 2013 will be a better year!

I am turning 21 this year. GAHHH. Need to plan plan plan party. And very hard la omg. Gonna be broke with all the 21 birthday parties I have to attend. Well, God will make a way!

xoxo.

yesterday was spent doing;

1.facial from groupon voucher
2.trimming eyebrows (WOOHOO 10 bucks)
3.shopping at bugis street
-honestly i cant get clothes from bugis anymore, especially tops, everything looks all the same to me, no interest anymore
-only got a top, a jacket (LIKE FINALLY FOR MAKING CLOTHES LOOK NICER) and a dress.
4.going over to moses' house
-in which at his house was learning to fold his uniform LOL.
-dinner


next week's plans;
1. MORE SHOPPING, prolly at far east plaza
2.go and get christmas shopping done (MUST BE DONE GAWDDD)


and side note, PASAR MALAM AT MY HOUSE DOWNSTAIRS! yay yummy food!

have a great week!

xoxo

Materialistic thinking

I quote of someone whom i saw this on my timeline;

"Whoever says that money is NOT everything, you're WRONG! 
Money IS everything. It can indirectly buy happiness, love, friends etc. 
Most importantly, it can buy me a chance to go overseas for internship & further studies, eventually landing me a career. In which I will strive to succeed in.
THAT can give me happiness for I will have achieved my dream. After which, I can settle down with my Mr Right & start a family thus providing me love, and the ability to support my parents...."

i will not entirely disagree that money does not indirectly make you happy. yes, it can solve many monetary problems. but in the end, are you genuinely happy? people become "friends" just because of your money. if one day you dont have this money anymore, will these "friends" still be there?

so what you dont get a chance to go overseas for internship? does not going for overseas internship make you a lousier person in other people's eyes? no. in fact, you go overseas internship you are paying to work there, you dont get any allowance. local internship, you dont need to pay, maybe just transport fees, but at least you get paid and get the feel of hard earned money. yes there is the overseas internship experience of course, that people rarely get the chance to experience. so what? i didnt go overseas for internship. of course who didnt want it? i wanted to go. but i couldnt. because i know i dont have the finance to be able to, and i dont want my parents to feel the pinch.

so what i cant go australia or wherever for further studies. doesnt mean that going for further studies will land you a career that you want. no matter whether you have a degree or not, ultimately it is still the skills that you carry and you yourself have to prove to your future employers that you are capable.

yes it is good that you want to strive to succeed in your future career. im not saying this is bad. its not that easy to get a job you desire that pays well or get a job that your boss treats you well.

i cant go australia or overseas to futher studies. on this point i must blame myself for not working hard enough in my year 1 and 2 to achieve good results. but the past is the past. i can only blame myself for not studying hard enough and pay attention in class. but diploma nowadays is not easy. you have to be both hardworking and smart to achieve 4.0 GPA. unfortunately, many of us, a high percentage of us, are only able to be hardworking. so what if i cant go. i have other alternatives. like psb academy. im not saying it was a good choice not being able to be in the local university. of course i was very upset that i was not able to enter any local university. but do i have a choice now? no.


but God has been very gracious to me and i have gotten myself a full-time job. one that has my interest, a rather good income for a diploma holder, a boss that is really nice to me, and a prof that so far has been nice to me. yes it wont be easy to work full-time and do part time studies, but at least i now know the true value of hard earned money. all those OT, getting unwanted needle jabs, and other minor injuries. the monetary value is so much different of which that your parents give you as allowance. you save every damn cent, you count every damn cent you spend, you try to save, you think of spending as now instead of "everything is a want and buy it", you think twice before buying something and you think "is this a need or a want?". you will try means and ways to purchase something at a discount if you really need it.

of course we also need to enjoy a little, but when we wanna spend on something for relaxation, we will always try to find good "lobangs" or deals to purchase that something.

anyway. not to boast. but i beat 2 girls w degrees and i got this current job. so its not about the paper.


And I know that you cant bring money to heaven. so why so stuck up about it?

I'd rather my children in the future know the importance of money. I dont blame my parents at all for landing the family in this situation where we have to scrimp and save, us children having to chip in to pay for dad's credit card bills, and me having to pay for my own uni education. thats something not every child can do, or even learn at all.

till the day that you are very rich, and suddenly lose all that money. you will know. but its not easy. no one said it was easy.

money cant buy love either. i didnt use money to buy love, neither did he. God didnt use money to buy our hearts. God just needed our Faith. yes i may sometimes like gifts and all, but ultimately, the best thing i could ever get, is to just snuggle and fall asleep in each other's arms, without any parents nagging about being too close and all. thats enough for me.


xoxo

job.

i realised i didnt blog about work ><

im currently working in NUS. i wish i were studying.

no need to worry about some fucked up money situation and need to pay 5k over every 6 months.

byebye salary.

well life is tough.

"we'll never be satisfied because life on earth is just temporary, like a holiday place"

what i read from Rick Warren's "Purpose Driven Life"

oh well.

at least it teaches me the value of hard earned money.

my boss is extremely nice.

hope my salary can be increased soon cos i really need ittttt.


gonna rest for the day soon!

monday tmr :(

and idk why doing my abs exercise its like always making me wanna bring dinner back up to my mouth... :(

SIAN.

time to run then tmr!

change of plans to lose my horribly ugly fat tummy (SUPER YUCKS)


xoxo

as we took our shuttle bus trip to the mrt, sleepy as we were, you pulled my hand across your belly and we both fell asleep.

even though its a simple gesture, i feel so happy ^^

see you in 4 days baby.




work.

SUCKS. sort of. im tired.

just need strength from God.

just so worried about part time uni studies as well.

leave it to the Lord :)

xoxo

people can be shocked when i tell them im attached for like 2 years plus.

i dont get it how is it shocking?

if you really love each other, trust and all, you would last.

dont think about it as long, or aim for it to last how long. cos that'll never bring u far.

just stay tgt to create wonderful memories, love each other.

that's all that matters.

hi.

NO WORK.

NUS pls gimme job.

tiredddd.

baked rainbow cupcakies!

shall blog tmr.